No one ever expected that it would be me,
An athlete, a Christian,
As far as you could see,
No one could tell you a reason,
Or why it felt so right,
It was easy reaching for that bottle,
When no one was in sight,
I swallowed 10 –no- 20,
Just to feel free,
I swallowed all those pills at once,
Just to feel happy,
Everyone around me,
Is also just as high,
Why didn’t they ever warn me,
I could never say good-bye?
It’s eating at my insides,
This horrible disease,
I throw up again,
This time falling to my knees,
Tears flow down my cheek,
But I’m just too sick to care,
I wish you hadn’t seen me,
You’re so shocked you only stare,
You take me to the hospital,
Early the next day,
I’ll admit to all I did,
Just take this pain away,
Stop giving me that look, Mom,
Stop blaming yourself for what I did,
I did this by myself,
You know I’m not a kid,
I now had to pay this price,
And to this drug I owed the debt,
The monitors are screaming,
-But please! - I don’t want to go yet!
All my family,
I can faintly hear them crying,
I hear my mother weeping-
Is it true I’m really dying?
All my thoughts go hazy,
And then fade to black,
I’m Lucia Martino,
And I’m never coming back.